i feel more calm when i think, type, say, hear, or read the following phrases

'the arbitrary nature of the universe'

'sales aren't rising'

'are sales rising'

'perhaps units will be moved'

'kombucha bitches unite'

'seems bleak'

those six phrases seem to make up the 'core' of 'tao lin'

i just thought of some more phrases, these must be 'secondary'

... as they did not 'come to me' as the first five did

'severe depression'

'crippling loneliness'

'existential despair'

'screaming in agony'

'victory in japan'

'consciousness means we must choose'

'the nature of being and existence'

'neutral facial expression'

'quiet monotone'

'concrete reality'

'ultimately life-affirming'

'gawker linked'

it is calming for me to combine these phrases

'due to severe depression and crippling loneliness he talked about the arbitrary nature of the universe with a quiet monotone and a neutral facial expression though ultimately life-affirming, gawker linked'

i am surprised those phrases combined 'so easily,' i pretty much just typed the sentence

i want to say that the phrases combined 'thusly,' i don't know, i just had an image of me being hit in the face really hard combined with an image of me being hit in the back of the head with a frying pan really hard, i'm wearing a plaid shirt right now i think

i believe the etiology of most of these phrases is 'gmail chats with noah cicero and ellen kennedy'

i do not take credit for these catch phrases, 'they simply define me as a human being'

my next novel will introduce phrases previously unused on this blog and in my previous books

these phrases are 'party girl' and 'cheese beast'

i have a strong urge to 'push' those phrases 'hard,' to 'get them into the vernacular'

i want jonathan safran foer's great grandson to say 'sales aren't rising, and i think the president is a cheese beast; kombucha bitches unite'

i would like the tagline of my second novel to be 'the novel that secured tao lin his steady cash flow without a real job'

that is another phrase that defines me, i forgot, i will put it now

'steady cash flow without a real job'

i feel dismay that i forgot that one, it seems crucial to my 'day-to-day existence' as well as many long-term thoughts that i have, 'AM I LIVING A LIE!?'

i also forgot these four

'what difference does it make'

'there is no good or bad in art'

'defined within a context and goal'

'existentially required to increase profits'

some others exist but are rare and i don't remember them right now

there are some that existed but are currently 'out of use'