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i think stephen dixon's books are calming to me, it might be due to other factors like where i read these books, or what i ate while reading them or something, but i remember feeling very calm after and while reading fall and rise, old friends, and meyer; some others like phone rings and work didn't make me feel as calm and there are some that i don't remember how i felt
i think i read so many of his books because they focus on human relationships and because almost every word, or every word, is literal and concrete and there are little or no cliches or 'idioms' (phrases whose meanings can't be known from knowing the individual meanings of the words they contain, for example 'kick the bucket' for 'die') and little or no description which makes it so i don't feel pressured toward a certain emotion or worldview when i read them
i keep wanting to talk shit about things, and make 'pronouncements,' i have deleted like 1000 words of shit-talking so far in the typing of this post, i feel anxiety; i watched the movie willow on youtube for 30-40 minutes tonight after looking at a list of 100 best nintendo games and seeing willow, the nintendo game; i don't remember how i started looking at the list of 100 best nintendo games, i don't remember at all; i also watched youtube videos of final fantasy 3 and final fantasy 2 and thought about how i have much stronger memories of playing final fantasy 3, metroid, and other video games than of reading any book, walking through nature, or even being in relationships maybe, i'm not sure
then i had thoughts about why reading is 'better' than video games but it was only me thinking 'why is reading better than video games' repeatedly in a monotone without believing i could proceed to something other than that, then i thought about writing a video game novel to try to 'exploit' how video games evoke stronger memories in me than maybe even things like family or friends, then i thought about emailing the stranger to ask them if i could write an article about video games, then i thought that i don't want to do that because i want to focus on my novel, then i thought about the movie willow, while watching it on youtube, and how the part before the ending has three or four scenes combined into one long scene, and how i should do that with my novel, then i felt a renewed sense of competence in the writing of my novel
then i came here and deleted parts of what i typed before which included things on rhetoric like how stephen dixon's sentences don't tell me 'the world is sad' or 'impeach bush' just like a bird flying into a tree doesn't tell me 'the world is sad' or 'recycle kombucha glasses' and i had a plan to delete all the sentences in this post that could be interpreted as 'implied shit-talking' and i deleted many things that were like that and wanted to just post this post as a shorter post but then felt uncontrollably that i wanted to type more sentences and started typing sentences about willow and nintendo
and now still feel anxiety about what i have typed, though i am not sure why, maybe because i fear that typing the wrong thing will make everyone lose interest in this site, which will cause people to stop buying my books, which means i would need to think of another way to someday, 2-3 years from now, achieve 'steady cash flow without a job,' which, though, isn't my 'goal in life' most of the time, because i know by experience that i do not feel any 'better' when i have no job, so that is not a reason i should allow to cause me to feel anxiety
and those are also not things that would happen, if anything typing these things that i am typing now will make it harder to achieve 'steady cash flow without a job'; typing the 'wrong' things would probably increase sales; for example if i shit-talked and made generalizations and named 'movements' and made 'pronouncements' i believe this site would get linked a lot, there would be a lot of comments, and more people would buy my books, and write about me, but maybe people that i don't like as much, but that doesn't affect the 'steady cash flow plan,' so i still do not know exactly why i feel anxiety about what i am typing here; i think some of it is because i want to express myself as i 'really am' so that i can meet people who like who i 'really am,' or maybe i want to express myself in a way that i like the most, so as to attract others who think in a way that i like the most, which means i will like them; yes, maybe that is it, but that has 'problems' also
it is 7 a.m. and i just showered and i feel 'insane,' i am going to sleep 'for the night' after this paragraph; i think i want to sell my laptop, having internet access in my room is causing crippling anxiety and i feel 'debilitated' existentially, i feel that i could keep typing this post forever, it is making me feel symptoms of 'excitement' right now like not feeling tired and not wanting to sleep and not wanting to stop what i am doing, but without the parts of excitement that feel 'good,' which i am not sure exactly are, maybe the prospect of closer relationships with other humans; i am doing something alone right now which maybe prevents that aspect of 'excitement' from 'manifesting,' which has something to do with video games maybe, but only single-player ones, i will stop now
stephen dixon interview with alisha adams
stephen dixon interview with tao lin
stephen dixon interview with a newspaper
stephen dixon essay on thomas bernhard
stephen dixon things on this site before
stephen dixon information on mcsweeney's
i think stephen dixon's books are calming to me, it might be due to other factors like where i read these books, or what i ate while reading them or something, but i remember feeling very calm after and while reading fall and rise, old friends, and meyer; some others like phone rings and work didn't make me feel as calm and there are some that i don't remember how i felt
i think i read so many of his books because they focus on human relationships and because almost every word, or every word, is literal and concrete and there are little or no cliches or 'idioms' (phrases whose meanings can't be known from knowing the individual meanings of the words they contain, for example 'kick the bucket' for 'die') and little or no description which makes it so i don't feel pressured toward a certain emotion or worldview when i read them
i keep wanting to talk shit about things, and make 'pronouncements,' i have deleted like 1000 words of shit-talking so far in the typing of this post, i feel anxiety; i watched the movie willow on youtube for 30-40 minutes tonight after looking at a list of 100 best nintendo games and seeing willow, the nintendo game; i don't remember how i started looking at the list of 100 best nintendo games, i don't remember at all; i also watched youtube videos of final fantasy 3 and final fantasy 2 and thought about how i have much stronger memories of playing final fantasy 3, metroid, and other video games than of reading any book, walking through nature, or even being in relationships maybe, i'm not sure
then i had thoughts about why reading is 'better' than video games but it was only me thinking 'why is reading better than video games' repeatedly in a monotone without believing i could proceed to something other than that, then i thought about writing a video game novel to try to 'exploit' how video games evoke stronger memories in me than maybe even things like family or friends, then i thought about emailing the stranger to ask them if i could write an article about video games, then i thought that i don't want to do that because i want to focus on my novel, then i thought about the movie willow, while watching it on youtube, and how the part before the ending has three or four scenes combined into one long scene, and how i should do that with my novel, then i felt a renewed sense of competence in the writing of my novel
then i came here and deleted parts of what i typed before which included things on rhetoric like how stephen dixon's sentences don't tell me 'the world is sad' or 'impeach bush' just like a bird flying into a tree doesn't tell me 'the world is sad' or 'recycle kombucha glasses' and i had a plan to delete all the sentences in this post that could be interpreted as 'implied shit-talking' and i deleted many things that were like that and wanted to just post this post as a shorter post but then felt uncontrollably that i wanted to type more sentences and started typing sentences about willow and nintendo
and now still feel anxiety about what i have typed, though i am not sure why, maybe because i fear that typing the wrong thing will make everyone lose interest in this site, which will cause people to stop buying my books, which means i would need to think of another way to someday, 2-3 years from now, achieve 'steady cash flow without a job,' which, though, isn't my 'goal in life' most of the time, because i know by experience that i do not feel any 'better' when i have no job, so that is not a reason i should allow to cause me to feel anxiety
and those are also not things that would happen, if anything typing these things that i am typing now will make it harder to achieve 'steady cash flow without a job'; typing the 'wrong' things would probably increase sales; for example if i shit-talked and made generalizations and named 'movements' and made 'pronouncements' i believe this site would get linked a lot, there would be a lot of comments, and more people would buy my books, and write about me, but maybe people that i don't like as much, but that doesn't affect the 'steady cash flow plan,' so i still do not know exactly why i feel anxiety about what i am typing here; i think some of it is because i want to express myself as i 'really am' so that i can meet people who like who i 'really am,' or maybe i want to express myself in a way that i like the most, so as to attract others who think in a way that i like the most, which means i will like them; yes, maybe that is it, but that has 'problems' also
it is 7 a.m. and i just showered and i feel 'insane,' i am going to sleep 'for the night' after this paragraph; i think i want to sell my laptop, having internet access in my room is causing crippling anxiety and i feel 'debilitated' existentially, i feel that i could keep typing this post forever, it is making me feel symptoms of 'excitement' right now like not feeling tired and not wanting to sleep and not wanting to stop what i am doing, but without the parts of excitement that feel 'good,' which i am not sure exactly are, maybe the prospect of closer relationships with other humans; i am doing something alone right now which maybe prevents that aspect of 'excitement' from 'manifesting,' which has something to do with video games maybe, but only single-player ones, i will stop now
20 Comments:
nice ass tao
(ok so i didnt read this post yet, i just wanted to make that joke in a public forum, now i will go read the post and maybe comment again)
I really like the horse.
I think it is one of your best.
I watched Willow a month ago. A classic. Val Kilmer's best.
His paperbacks cost about €25 ($37) here in Europe. Your latest recommendation, The Book of Disquiet, was only about $5. Still, I'd happily have paid $37 for excerpt 20 of Pessoa's book alone.
Worth it?
Sometimes having my laptop in my room can be paralyzing. I feel like I can't do anything but click on endless links and watch videos of people sledding into cars.
i don't know if it's worth it, i don't think i would reread stephen dixon's books like i would other people's books, or if i did reread it would be after 3 years or something
i recommend the end of the story by lydia davis
thanks kendra, noah
i was surprised when i saw the ass, i think the color is shocking
yellow is a good color for things like asses and plaid shirts
maybe someone should monitor how much time you spend on the laptop
i can't remember seeing a yellow shirt recently, that is strange
I must be from the future, I already have The End of the Story and I don't know how I got it. Obama's been nice to the world, in case you're wondering. Also: buy cows, milk is like liquid gold now.
i like the yellow ass and put it as my desktop at work and asked my boss if she liked it and she walked away.
i like meyer
i will probably not reread it though
I'm bored and therefore inclined to write stupid comments riddled with a quantity of vapidity. Yellow is a good color for some plaid shirts (as one commenter mentioned). Mustard yellow was in fashion this winter. So this must mean that you are fashionable in terms of colors.
I think I read something by Lydia Davis (also mentioned above) and liked it. Unfortunately I can't remember anything about it. My lack of protein in my diet is probably making me even more inclined to stupidity and memory loss.
tao, i loved this post, i think you've at least given us readers an impression that you write in an outline or whatever of who you are
or i feel from reading the post that i like who you are
and i feel that i'm similar
and that how you are makes me feel more okay towards how i really am
and that i'd like to write like that (duh) - but just for fun and to try honesty out for a moment, to remember what it's like at the surface
thanks tao
you are a good person
in short, i now feel okay about not doing so well on a test tomorrow that has little to do with who i am, and better about how i do tomorrow in general as that has a bit more to do with who i am
also your thoughts or writing about thoughts on video games in relation to your novel were sigh great to read
i'm writing a novel that contains a video game, it's hard, but your post captures some of the subtexts maybe that i'm trying to escape in the novel
i'm not too crazy about video games, i don't know why, but i'm sort of fascinated by them - i think i sort of hate them because i feel like i'm abusing myself by playing them
and, fwiw, i want to buy more of your books
if you wrote more controversial stuff i don't think i would, i'm still hoping that people i admire can be inspiring in a positive way
but just forget about that
i'll play you best of fifty games of scrabble for the right to take away your laptop.
thank you for that comment you-x, i enjoyed reading it
carmichael, i'll trade my laptop for a life-time supply of kimchee maybe
i want to write a novel called 'steady cash flow'
thank you ashley
ghostis, if you google 'lydia davis' and 'jobless bitch' you can read some lydia davis
this is a good post. best in a while.
stephen dixon hypnotizes me a little i think. have you read 'interstate'? i think i asked you that once before. but its basically the same scene written over and over with different outcomes. i dont think it calmed me down. he is often very sad to me. but being sad is calming sometimes. i think i still like his book I. the best but it's been a long time since i read it and maybe i should again.
an essay on video games is a good idea.
i have not read interstate or frog
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